You ever do such a great job of talking yourself into believing
something that you do it repeatedly without realizing what you're doing
anymore?
I have...and I've been doing it for a very long time.
Over
the past few weeks I've been realizing something while slowly trying
to come to terms with the opposite...make sense? Nope...doesn't to me
either.
I have been trying to believe a complete facade and
telling myself it's the right thing to do when at every corner, turn and
bend there is evidence to prove otherwise. If you have to think of
something in your head, run it over and over and make excuses for it
until it comes out right in your memory...not really what happened, is
it?
You can imagine you saw a unicorn but in the end you know it
was a horse with a twig sticking out of it's mane. Or you can believe
that you can save a friend by sending her flying through the air on your
hat while you really know that things like that only happen in
Wonderland and if you really tried it...well...you wouldn't. And, yes,
in the land of make believe...rather, friendship...if you have to think
around arguments, deceit and misunderstandings to see the laughter,
chances are the laughter wasn't all that loud.
Sometimes you need
to let your hat fly to see if it comes back. If it does then you know
it was meant to be...if it remains lost...well...I guess it's time for a
new hat.
